Death has been on my mind today. I am cocky in my perception of death. Most times I understand why it happened to someone. I can see the potential from the loss. The lesson that those of us left behind must learn in order to grow. Please don't misunderstand. I mourn and with deep sadness, but I mourn with understanding too.
But then there is a passing that ceases the wind beneath my wings and I plummet. It makes no sense. It was windy just before and now it is not and I fall. You were here just before, and now you are not and I am lost. Everything I thought I knew about loss is lost.
It is not for me to question who gets to leave and who gets to stay. Or whether or not I think they were done. I am just...I'm just sad today. I seek understanding when I am faced with uncomfortable emotions. It helps me heal if I can figure out why. But I don't think I am going to get it on this one. I am just going to have to face my grief the old-fashioned way.
These are my random thoughts for today.